A while back I channeled a message that was about the necessity of polarity. We experience the good and the bad because it helps us connect more deeply with our choices. 

About a month ago, I attended Heather Rebecca Wilson's Sacred Space Holding Activation. In this container, she said "allow yourself to be devastated." I recognized that I was hovering at the surface not going deep but I didn't know why. When Heather said this I realized why I was hovering and not diving in: I was  sheltering myself from the pain. It was then I realized I was the spiritual equivalent of a snowflake, I was spiritually bypassing. 

Rather than get caught up in the shame and guilt of being the spiritual snowflake, I decided to embrace the experience and learn from it. Allowing yourself to be devastated is also an act of proving to yourself what you are capable of. You are absolutely capable of feeling the devastation and bouncing back. 

I kamikaze'd my way through my spiritual development. I took a workshop in January 2019 and launched my business giving private readings 6 months later. My private practice has evolved to focus more on helping people gain the tools to navigate this experience feeling confident to explore with sovereignty while expressing their unique flavor. I'm here to help you experience it the way YOU are meant to express it. 

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I woke up this morning to the scent of spam and rice. It made me a combination of sad and nostalgic.

It made me nostalgic as I thought about my childhood and having spam. I feel like we didn't eat spam that often. I feel like it was more of a special treat.

It made me sad because I can't eat it. About 3 years ago, I gave up meat for my health. But that is a story for another time. 

As I think about why it makes me so nostalgic, I think about my mom and how often she would make us home cooked meals. When I was a kid, we would walk to a neighbor's house after school and they would watch us until my mom got off of work. Often times, she would pick us up and we would go home and she would cook us dinner. I think about how much work and effort that is. With 3 small kids, after working an entire day, and then coming home and being by yourself and making dinner. 

I think about how much I struggle with that with only 2 kids and having help. I think of how much work that is and how much love is put into it. This thought begs me to ask myself, why don't I love myself enough to be able to do that?

Why don't I love my family enough to be able to do that? It also makes me have so much admiration for my mom for doing that every day for so long. We barely ate out as kids. I don't think my mom jumped on the fast food train until I was in middle or high school.

I share this as both admiration for my mom and finally understanding what my guides are trying to tell me about having a relationship with my food and with eating. I've realized my attachment to the foods I think of so fondly are really an attachment to the memories. Taking that even deeper is that I didn't understand it as my mom's love and a part of me felt like I'd be losing it by letting it go. I know that isn't true. My mom comes by with vegetarian friendly food for me all the time.

Eating is more than stuffing food down your throat so it could journey through your insides and come out in your feces. It is a multi-dimensional experience of emotions, memories, and the energies of all involved from those that cultivated, prepared, and shared the meal. ​This is taking mindfulness to the next level. You want to love unconditionally? It means loving all things, inclusive of your food and your eating ritual. 

Close your eyes.
Take 3 deep breaths, in through the nose and out your mouth.
Return your breath to it's normal pace. 

Visualize a bright light filling up your space, neutralizing your surroundings. 
Allow yourself to embrace and celebrate who you are right here, right now. 
Send yourself love.
Maybe that's visualizing hugging yourself or telling yourself a legit compliment. 
Bask in it. Feel that energy fill you up. 
Then gently return to your body and open your eyes. 

Ok thx bai! JK

What we do in our mind has great effects on our physical reality.
What starts in your mind takes energy and builds momentum until it manifests into physical reality.

Meditation isn't just about sitting in silence. It helps you build self-awareness through your monkey mind. Consider all the shit running through your mind when you try to sit in silence. Those thoughts are coming up for a reason. 

Meditation is a foundation of my practice and should be for you too if you're trying to make personal developmental progress. I teach this in alllll of my classes.  

Do you have a meditation practice? What does meditation look like for you?

My family is reading this awesome book Charlie Hernandez and The Castle of Bones by Ryan Calejo. It was a gift to my son but we read it as a family and we. are. hooked. There were many late nights that my son and I stayed up late reading chapter after chapter from the first book of what I hope is a lengthy series. The books are full of magic,  mystery, and suspense. As I sneakily read ahead, I came upon this quote.

This quote is so fitting for everyone. How many times have you had an idea that you absolutely knew you needed to share with the world? Now how many of you analyzed, criticized, and diminished that idea in the pursuit of perfection to the point that you deflated all the energy from it?

You (and all of your creations) are perfect as is. Period. 

The curse of comparison is real. It will keep you from making the exponential progress you envision. Perfection is in progress. 

All you need is to come as you are. Get out of your way by anchoring yourself in your heart and let that be your guide. 

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Slow the f*ck down.

​Right now. 

When I took my month long break from my secure job, the biggest takeaway was how hard I was driving myself. I realized I wasn't giving my best energy to the things most important to me and it pushed me to examine how I was prioritizing my life.

Why am I pushing myself so hard?
Why aren't I savoring the things I treasure?
What is the root cause of these beliefs?

Scarcity mindset. 

I had Broadway's Hamilton playing over and over in my head.

How do you write like you're running out of time?
Write day and night like you're running out of time?
Everyday you fight like you're running out of time
Like you're running out of time
Are you running out of time?
How do you write like tomorrow won't arrive?
How do you write like you need it to survive?
How do you write every second you're alive?
Every second you're alive? Every second you're alive?

Initially, I thought I needed to burn the energy and that I needed to let the inspiration flow. Damn, I was wrong.  If you haven't watched Hamilton happily dozens of times, I will throw you a bone and tell you that there is another song "You'll never be satisfied" that also spoke to me. 

It's time to be present. In the moment. Time to realize that everything I love is already in my possession. Stop chasing the dream and allow myself to enjoy the dream I'm living.

Do you relate? What dream are you chasing?