Enjoy the dream I'm living.

Slow the f*ck down.

​Right now. 

When I took my month long break from my secure job, the biggest takeaway was how hard I was driving myself. I realized I wasn't giving my best energy to the things most important to me and it pushed me to examine how I was prioritizing my life.

Why am I pushing myself so hard?
Why aren't I savoring the things I treasure?
What is the root cause of these beliefs?

Scarcity mindset. 

I had Broadway's Hamilton playing over and over in my head.

How do you write like you're running out of time?
Write day and night like you're running out of time?
Everyday you fight like you're running out of time
Like you're running out of time
Are you running out of time?
How do you write like tomorrow won't arrive?
How do you write like you need it to survive?
How do you write every second you're alive?
Every second you're alive? Every second you're alive?

Initially, I thought I needed to burn the energy and that I needed to let the inspiration flow. Damn, I was wrong.  If you haven't watched Hamilton happily dozens of times, I will throw you a bone and tell you that there is another song "You'll never be satisfied" that also spoke to me. 

It's time to be present. In the moment. Time to realize that everything I love is already in my possession. Stop chasing the dream and allow myself to enjoy the dream I'm living.

Do you relate? What dream are you chasing?