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 I woke up this morning to the scent of spam and rice. It made me a combination of sad and nostalgic.
It made me nostalgic as I thought about my childhood and having spam. I feel like we didn't eat spam that often. I feel like it was more of a special treat. It made me sad because I can't eat it. About 3 years ago, I gave up meat for my health. But that is a story for another time. As I think about why it makes me so nostalgic, I think about my mom and how often she would make us home cooked meals. When I was a kid, we would walk to a neighbor's house after school and they would watch us until my mom got off of work. Often times, she would pick us up and we would go home and she would cook us dinner. I think about how much work and effort that is. With 3 small kids, after working an entire day, and then coming home and being by yourself and making dinner. I think about how much I struggle with that with only 2 kids and having help. I think of how much work that is and how much love is put into it. This thought begs me to ask myself, why don't I love myself enough to be able to do that? Why don't I love my family enough to be able to do that? It also makes me have so much admiration for my mom for doing that every day for so long. We barely ate out as kids. I don't think my mom jumped on the fast food train until I was in middle or high school. I share this as both admiration for my mom and finally understanding what my guides are trying to tell me about having a relationship with my food and with eating. I've realized my attachment to the foods I think of so fondly are really an attachment to the memories. Taking that even deeper is that I didn't understand it as my mom's love and a part of me felt like I'd be losing it by letting it go. I know that isn't true. My mom comes by with vegetarian friendly food for me all the time. Eating is more than stuffing food down your throat so it could journey through your insides and come out in your feces. It is a multi-dimensional experience of emotions, memories, and the energies of all involved from those that cultivated, prepared, and shared the meal. This is taking mindfulness to the next level. You want to love unconditionally? It means loving all things, inclusive of your food and your eating ritual.  Credit: Aditya Saxena Are you born a psychic or can you develop it? I get this question often. It is one I pondered myself when I was first introduced to a course on intuition development. How do you define intuition? Here are my thoughts on intuition development: intuition is the secular term for psychism (I have a whole lot to say on that but we will save it for another post).
Just like witches got a bad wrap from colonizers ages ago, so have psychics. I pose the question: what does this actually tell us? JK You'll have to stay tuned for that blog post too. In this post, I want to address whether your psychic senses are natural born or developed. The answer is: both! Everyone has psychic abilities. They are as innate in us as any of our other senses. However, like a neglected muscle, our psychic abilities will weaken over time without exercise. It takes consistent practice to maintain our psychic abilities. If you asked me about this at the start of my spiritual journey, I would have told you that I never had any experiences. I would be a perfect example that you absolutely can develop this. However, it all comes back to consciousness. The more I learned, the more I understood of all the seemingly insignificant moments that were truly spiritually guided. Now YOU tell me, what do you think being psychic is all about?  Close your eyes.
Take 3 deep breaths, in through the nose and out your mouth. Return your breath to it's normal pace. Visualize a bright light filling up your space, neutralizing your surroundings. Allow yourself to embrace and celebrate who you are right here, right now. Send yourself love. Maybe that's visualizing hugging yourself or telling yourself a legit compliment. Bask in it. Feel that energy fill you up. Then gently return to your body and open your eyes. Ok thx bai! JK What we do in our mind has great effects on our physical reality. What starts in your mind takes energy and builds momentum until it manifests into physical reality. Meditation isn't just about sitting in silence. It helps you build self-awareness through your monkey mind. Consider all the shit running through your mind when you try to sit in silence. Those thoughts are coming up for a reason. Meditation is a foundation of my practice and should be for you too if you're trying to make personal developmental progress. I teach this in alllll of my classes. Do you have a meditation practice? What does meditation look like for you?  I've been laying low, being extra thoughtful about my moves. Each time I try to get back into my routine I feel sluggish. It's driving me crazy.
😫I go through the motions of beating up on myself for not being productive and consistent. 😫I hate on myself for not taking better care of myself and for not being more "perfect." 😫I get to comparing myself to others and start to stress myself out for not being at the same level. 😕How many times have you fallen off your routine only to push yourself harder when you get back to it? 😕Fallen off your diet only to starve yourself to make up for weight gained? 😕Eaten food you enjoy only to regret it out of guilt? 😕Took a day off from working out to work out extra hard the next day? 😕Felt like giving up because you feel like you've gotten too far from where you were? These are fresh in my mind because that was my recent memory. This mindset comes from the perspective of lack aka scarcity. It comes from the belief that you're not enough. Truth is, you needed that break from your routine for one reason or another. Whatever it is, it's bigger than one workout/meal/day off! I'll wager its even bigger than 2-3 days off. Your body is an intelligent being. It knows what it needs. Most importantly, stop judging and start embracing yourself! Your Higher Self is calling you to rest and recharge because you're going to need your full energy. While you're there, feel into why. What does it tell you? I need to rest and recharge to hold space for myself and others. I know that I got into a routine once and I can do it again. This time it'll be an evolved routine. Knowing I'm resting with a higher purpose helps me lean into it. The work doesn't end with this election. We have plenty of work to do. If you are done with people telling you right from wrong and ready to reconnect with your native guidance system, use the Book Now button to book a 15 minute consultation to see if we are an energetic match!  My family is reading this awesome book Charlie Hernandez and The Castle of Bones by Ryan Calejo. It was a gift to my son but we read it as a family and we. are. hooked. There were many late nights that my son and I stayed up late reading chapter after chapter from the first book of what I hope is a lengthy series. The books are full of magic, mystery, and suspense. As I sneakily read ahead, I came upon this quote.
This quote is so fitting for everyone. How many times have you had an idea that you absolutely knew you needed to share with the world? Now how many of you analyzed, criticized, and diminished that idea in the pursuit of perfection to the point that you deflated all the energy from it? You (and all of your creations) are perfect as is. Period. The curse of comparison is real. It will keep you from making the exponential progress you envision. Perfection is in progress. All you need is to come as you are. Get out of your way by anchoring yourself in your heart and let that be your guide. Are you looking to re-establish your connection with your native guidance system? Use the Book Now button up top to book a 15 minute consultation with me to see if we are an energetic match.  Slow the f*ck down.
Right now. When I took my month long break from my secure job, the biggest takeaway was how hard I was driving myself. I realized I wasn't giving my best energy to the things most important to me and it pushed me to examine how I was prioritizing my life. Why am I pushing myself so hard? Why aren't I savoring the things I treasure? What is the root cause of these beliefs? Scarcity mindset. I had Broadway's Hamilton playing over and over in my head. How do you write like you're running out of time? Write day and night like you're running out of time? Everyday you fight like you're running out of time Like you're running out of time Are you running out of time? How do you write like tomorrow won't arrive? How do you write like you need it to survive? How do you write every second you're alive? Every second you're alive? Every second you're alive? Initially, I thought I needed to burn the energy and that I needed to let the inspiration flow. Damn, I was wrong. If you haven't watched Hamilton happily dozens of times, I will throw you a bone and tell you that there is another song "You'll never be satisfied" that also spoke to me. It's time to be present. In the moment. Time to realize that everything I love is already in my possession. Stop chasing the dream and allow myself to enjoy the dream I'm living. Do you relate? What dream are you chasing?  Majority of the time we are seeking answers for self-improvement. Sometimes we need to recognize that we are enough and give ourselves a pat on the back. I was doing my own personal development working with my Archetype cards by Caroline Myss asking questions about archetypes I need to know to heal or bring more light to. I felt like changing it up and asked, which archetype do I need to be more aware of that I am not giving myself enough credit for?
Behold the avenger. While we are moving through social justice, we need to recognize our work. It is important to acknowledge where we went wrong and it is easy to get caught up in the self-loathing and self-punishment. What is more important is we learn from our past and take action to support the future. Educating ourselves and recognizing the injustice is one step and we need to recognize the progress in that. We are contributing to breaking the cycle. Like I said, don’t get too comfortable in one spot. It isn’t enough to throw a party over but we deserve to feel the joy in progress. There is still so much more work to be done and to keep it going, we need to see a positive. The avenger is the idea of balance and justice. Are you in light or shadow expression of this archetype? The light aspect is considered the balance. Light is seeking the highest and greatest good. The shadow expression is considered action based outside of love. Is it done in the name of justice but based out of fear, doubt, hate, or revenge? What is this action rooted in? The avenger wears a mask trying to humbly get the job done with no attention. When in light, they don’t need the attention. They do it because of the bigger picture. Maybe you are quietly supporting the revolution and you don’t recognize your effort as a contribution. You are. This is your reminder that you are helping make a difference, no matter the size. The yellow in the picture signifies strong will, you must have strong will to pursue justice in times like these. There are a lot of hard angles in the picture that give me triangle vibes which represent strength. The hard angles also tell us that we must choose a direction. Often times we talk about grey areas but this card says we must choose. The light blue on the map represent throat chakra work which is speaking and putting action behind our truth. The map tells me that this is a global effect or that it has no boundaries. It doesn't matter where you are, this affects everyone. The dark blue speaks to the vision you are creating. Everything starts in energy and manifests itself to the physical experience. What you are thinking and envisioning is what you are creating. Do you find yourself stuck in the mental pattern of what's wrong with today or do you move that vision forward to the picture perfect existence you desire? As a mother and pregnant with a baby on the way, I remember watching the last election results and feeling so much despair. I was so disappointed in my country and even more so of the people in my immediate circles that support Trump. How will I raise my kids in a world with that cheeto as our country's leader. In retrospect, turns out it has taught my kids a lot about character. Sometimes we need to identify what we don't want in order to identify what we do. Did I replay the doom I felt over and over? Honestly, maybe a few times. I felt a stronger need to move forward and to give myself motivation. I found this motivation through recognizing that even his term is limited and yawl, this was before I found meditation! Does this resonate for you? Comment below.  Dolores Cannon is my spirit guide.
I can’t remember when I first heard about Dolores Cannon but it wasn’t that long ago. I only began to pursue learning metaphysics in January 2019. Whenever I did, I went down the past life regression hole of Dolores Cannon and Brian Weiss. I borrowed every book and audiobook I could from the library. I would listen to them during my commute and read late at night. When I read Cannon’s books, I imagined her voice as a soft gentle grandmother. At one point, I considered hypnotherapy training at HMI in Tarzana, CA. But I did not (still don’t) want to do traditional hypnotherapy. I am fascinated by the energetic imprints left behind from past lives. The past life information is what drew me to my first Akashic Records class. Fast forward to about a month ago, I had my first past life regression. Then I had another session done. After the 2nd session, I knew I wanted to learn Cannon’s method known as QHHT. I’m going through the online training, which is the recording of a live training with Mizz Cannon herself. A part of me wasn’t sure I liked the woman. She is blunt and stern. She cuts people off to get to the point. She shuts down people’s questions rooted in doubt and fear. Then as I got closer to the end of the training, I realized I love her! Two things stood out. The first is how she decodes physical discomfort as a message from the body on what is happening in a person’s mental-emotional wellness. This is largely how I’ve been receiving messages in the last year. The second is Cannon’s approach was to take her time with sessions. She treated her client’s sessions as if that would be their only session with her.* She didn’t save anything for later sessions, she worked through all of it with her clients in that one session. This is important for me because I have a very strong view that you already know everything you need. When I work with people, I see myself giving you a tune up so that you can get back on doing the work that you know exactly how to do. I feel this regardless of whether that be mentoring or 1:1 sessions. I came from a mindset that I needed to keep taking classes and that I needed a master to facilitate my evolution. This is dangerous. It puts your authority outside of yourself. You don’t know when to stop until someone else tells you. You don’t know when you’re safe until someone else tells you. You’re a puppet and you need someone else to tell you what to do and when to do it. Working with me means you will claim your power. You will realize your wholeness. You will become the Goddess/God of your Universe. Those my friend, are the keys to the car to continue the journey on your own. Book a 15 minute consultation with me here to see if we are an energetic match! *Not to be confused with her sessions that were research for her books. Spiritual development is about clearing your mind of all the distractions. When you can clear your mind, you can have crystal clear understanding of who you are, what you came into this life to do, and be clear on your path.
Early on in my development, I knew that in order to take my abilities to the next level, I needed to work through my blocks. I went through the motions of thinking I didn't have baggage to work through (eye roll at myself), thinking that I was working through baggage and it wasn't that bad(double eye roll), and then getting frustrated because I couldn't figure it out. Well, I had such a hard time because I was stuck in a pattern trying to work through my baggage. I was stuck in the pattern for so long that it was my normal. After editing this video over time, I thought it was really funny that I talked about make up and appearances while looking pretty ratchet. I don't usually wear make up and if I do it is minimal but even my hair looks like it wants a day off lol. Enjoy! -------------------------- Music Credit: www.bensound.com |
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