Mama had her a meltdown!

I realize we have so much happening with the planetary alignments that are alchemizing exponential transformation as we move into 200 years of a new element: air. This meltdown was days in the making. I put myself through several things (whew, energy cleanse! aka enema for the soul) that helped surface the energy that manifested as a meltdown.

Yes, I gotta have grace for myself. Believe me, I’m the first person to recognize that.
Yes, I know this is all in the end good. I’m usually one of the more optimistic people you’ll ever meet.

But don’t get it twisted, I feel the full range of my emotions. I need it.

My emotions ground me.
My emotions remind me how human I am.
My emotions keep me honest with myself. (How dare I say I’m cool when I’m feeling so incredibly meh and underwhelmed on the inside!)

I share this because there are so many out there in the spiritual community that hook onto light and love as the only way.

Yo….your shadow gives you depth and greater self-awareness.

Let yourself feel all the feels, even the ones that break you down to tears. I am a better person for my tears. I have a stronger relationship with myself for honoring my energy and letting her do what she does best.

I reimagined my services to now offer the Total Transparency session. The Total Transparency session is designed to help you get real with yourself through channeled guidance. I employ all of my spiritual practices to facilitate the best experience for us. While my books are closed for the rest of 2020, gift yourself and/or a friend the Total Transparency session and start this new 200 years of air element with self-awareness. 
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Have you ever spent time in your garden, at a park, or on a nature trail and felt like you weren't alone? It could be an animal or it could be a nature spirit. 

As animists, pre-colonial Filipino spiritual traditions were that all things have a spirit. As a child, I was taught to tread lightly through the yard and to say "tabi tabi po" or "excuse me" in Tagalog. Whenever I am hiking or camping, I am extremely sensitive to the fact that I am trespassing on someone else's home. This is likely from being taught at a young age this practice of saying excuse me while I walk through nature. It was only a few years ago that I was terrified of all things non-physical. My canon was all ghosts, hauntings, and spooky. 

This practice of saying "tabi tabi po" was taught to me as a way to be among the nature spirits with respect and reverence for their own existence. It gives them a heads up that you're coming through so that they can find safe coverage. It is believed that if you cause harm to a nature spirit, it could seek revenge on you. After all, nature spirits feel emotions just like us including anger and fear. As a child, my elders must've left out the respect and reverence part of the explanation. It was the fear or retaliation that had me saying excuse me. 

Have no fear. If we allow unconditional love to guide us and be our flashlight, we can trust that everything happens as divinely planned. Want to explore these metaphysical streets with confidence in your authority? I want to work with you 1:1 to do just that. My practice is centered on guiding people to use their energy with confidence and authority so that they feel centered and balanced no matter the situation. This allows people to continue the work learning their own way and as their own master. Click here to setup a complimentary 15 minute consultation to see if we are an energetic match.  

​Use this meditation to dip your toe in the faery energy pool or allow it to be your portal to explore this magical world. 

Are you trying to:

• gain a state of consciousness that gives you peace
• manifest abundance
• connect with your soul's purpose
• heal your ancestry
• work with crystals and other divination tools

but feel overwhelmed at the thought of all the different trainings, programs, approaches, and structures? 

I've got news for you. You don't need any of it. 

When you understand how your energy works and the paradigm in which the Universe is communicating you in, that's all you need. Sit back and let me tell you a story. 

I grew up with my paternal grandparents living 5 minutes away from me. Coincidentally, or not, I now live in between the home they lived in and the home I grew up in. While I spent a lot of time at their house, I can't say I knew much about my grandparents as people.

I remember spending afternoons at my grandparents' house. Most of the time, my grandma had her sewing or embroidery machine out. She was always crafting something whether it be sewn, embroidered, knitted, or crocheted. My grandma was a Filipina Martha Stewart always creating things. One time she took a heather grey sweatshirt and embroidered a fluffy teddy bear onto it. I wore that sweatshirt until the cuffs frayed.

When she passed away, I remembered so fondly sitting on her kitchen counter top as we made pancakes together, me tossing gummy bears into the batter. Compared to the memories of my maternal grandma, which are none because she died before I was born, I have this wealth of experience with my paternal grandma yet I feel heavier regret for not knowing her more fully as a person. For not asking her more questions and getting to know who she was and how she came to be. Yes, she could've resisted my questions as so many adults do to youth. But I never even gave her the opportunity to deny me.

Getting in touch with my spiritual self and embracing my psychic abilities, I didn't expect anything. I approached it with curiosity for the peace of mind it offered but never consciously understood what I was getting myself into. Here I am, almost 2 years later, and it is reconnecting me with my grandma to finally know her in a way that I thought wasn't possible. I allowed myself to flow with her guidance.

While I've read books and taken courses on many topics, lately I've been finding myself dropping or not completing them because I don't feel connected to the process. I've been allowing my intuition to guide me to what is most significant to me. I wouldn't have been able to do it if I was the same scaredy cat I was 3 years ago. I would've been to scared to find that I always held the key to my success: meeeeee.

If you want to learn the tools to take on anything with confidence and authority, setup a 15 minute consultation with me by clicking here or check out my previous posts tagged with Spiritual Development or Audio/Video.

I created this meditation to help people discern via a somatic experience. I told someone that our body is one large tarot card/divination tool giving us clues to our experience. The same can be said when trying to discern whether your experience is based in high intentions or not.

If you're looking for someone to teach you how to traverse these metaphysical explorations so that you can go into any experience or modality with confidence and authority, setup a 15 minute consultation with me here to see if we're an energetic match. 

On Sunday November 1, All Saints Day in Christian-Filipino culture, I taught Connecting and Working With Your Spirit Guides. A class connecting you with your energetic board of directors, helping you return to your native guidance system.

Connecting with my spirituality, was a transformative process for me. Knowing that I have this dream team of supporters gave me confidence to take on all of the life experiences that normally would've made me feel unworthy and inferior. Working with my spirit guides helped me shift my mindset so that I could show up as my whole self.

Following the class, I had a dream in my happy place. All of my ancestors that I knew in this lifetime were there. They gathered around me, holding me, supporting me as I cried. I cried tears of relief and healing knowing that I am living my purpose.

I am excited to see how this class grows from here, the possibilities are infinite. Thank you so much for making me a part of your journey.

I am offering this class again on Dec 13 and Feb 12. Click here to register or see the next offering of this class. 

If you're ready for energetic abundance, this class is for you.

A while back I channeled a message that was about the necessity of polarity. We experience the good and the bad because it helps us connect more deeply with our choices. 

About a month ago, I attended Heather Rebecca Wilson's Sacred Space Holding Activation. In this container, she said "allow yourself to be devastated." I recognized that I was hovering at the surface not going deep but I didn't know why. When Heather said this I realized why I was hovering and not diving in: I was  sheltering myself from the pain. It was then I realized I was the spiritual equivalent of a snowflake, I was spiritually bypassing. 

Rather than get caught up in the shame and guilt of being the spiritual snowflake, I decided to embrace the experience and learn from it. Allowing yourself to be devastated is also an act of proving to yourself what you are capable of. You are absolutely capable of feeling the devastation and bouncing back. 

I kamikaze'd my way through my spiritual development. I took a workshop in January 2019 and launched my business giving private readings 6 months later. My private practice has evolved to focus more on helping people gain the tools to navigate this experience feeling confident to explore with sovereignty while expressing their unique flavor. I'm here to help you experience it the way YOU are meant to express it. 

Be a medium but make it YOU.
Be an energy healer but make it YOU.
Be a psychic counselor but make it YOU.

If you're ready to be psychic AF while blowing it up your style, setup a 15 minute consultation by clicking here to see if we're an energetic match. 

I woke up this morning to the scent of spam and rice. It made me a combination of sad and nostalgic.

It made me nostalgic as I thought about my childhood and having spam. I feel like we didn't eat spam that often. I feel like it was more of a special treat.

It made me sad because I can't eat it. About 3 years ago, I gave up meat for my health. But that is a story for another time. 

As I think about why it makes me so nostalgic, I think about my mom and how often she would make us home cooked meals. When I was a kid, we would walk to a neighbor's house after school and they would watch us until my mom got off of work. Often times, she would pick us up and we would go home and she would cook us dinner. I think about how much work and effort that is. With 3 small kids, after working an entire day, and then coming home and being by yourself and making dinner. 

I think about how much I struggle with that with only 2 kids and having help. I think of how much work that is and how much love is put into it. This thought begs me to ask myself, why don't I love myself enough to be able to do that?

Why don't I love my family enough to be able to do that? It also makes me have so much admiration for my mom for doing that every day for so long. We barely ate out as kids. I don't think my mom jumped on the fast food train until I was in middle or high school.

I share this as both admiration for my mom and finally understanding what my guides are trying to tell me about having a relationship with my food and with eating. I've realized my attachment to the foods I think of so fondly are really an attachment to the memories. Taking that even deeper is that I didn't understand it as my mom's love and a part of me felt like I'd be losing it by letting it go. I know that isn't true. My mom comes by with vegetarian friendly food for me all the time.

Eating is more than stuffing food down your throat so it could journey through your insides and come out in your feces. It is a multi-dimensional experience of emotions, memories, and the energies of all involved from those that cultivated, prepared, and shared the meal. ​This is taking mindfulness to the next level. You want to love unconditionally? It means loving all things, inclusive of your food and your eating ritual. 

Close your eyes.
Take 3 deep breaths, in through the nose and out your mouth.
Return your breath to it's normal pace. 

Visualize a bright light filling up your space, neutralizing your surroundings. 
Allow yourself to embrace and celebrate who you are right here, right now. 
Send yourself love.
Maybe that's visualizing hugging yourself or telling yourself a legit compliment. 
Bask in it. Feel that energy fill you up. 
Then gently return to your body and open your eyes. 

Ok thx bai! JK

What we do in our mind has great effects on our physical reality.
What starts in your mind takes energy and builds momentum until it manifests into physical reality.

Meditation isn't just about sitting in silence. It helps you build self-awareness through your monkey mind. Consider all the shit running through your mind when you try to sit in silence. Those thoughts are coming up for a reason. 

Meditation is a foundation of my practice and should be for you too if you're trying to make personal developmental progress. I teach this in alllll of my classes.  

Do you have a meditation practice? What does meditation look like for you?