Stronger together

I am going through an immense amount of self-healing and a big part of that is digging through your history and re-opening old wounds. For many of us, we are opening wounds we forgot or did not know existed. We spend so much energy adapting to smooth out life's hard edges that often times we avoid or lose sight of the root cause. Trying to resolve a situation too quickly is an easy way to do this and a sure fire way to ensure that we repeat the patterns that we are depriving ourselves from learning from. 

In particular, I found myself uncovering this pattern of avoidance or isolation to protect myself. I was working in my Akashic Records and I uncovered a pattern of being the victim of emotional abandonment and the subject of  resentment. To my abusers, I symbolized all that they did not want and what made them unhappy. To adapt and protect myself, I had to learn to become emotionally independent.

Over years, it made me what you might call a lone-wolf. I would be perfectly fine working by myself. In fact, I preferred it. As I asked the Records what I needed to do to heal this pattern, I was shown that by isolating myself and taking on this archetype of the lone-wolf, I was only perpetuating the cycle of abandonment and emotional repression. When we experience relationship trauma, we can take time to isolate to ground but the idea is to get back in the game. To re-connect with the collective. To take the lessons of our experiences and share them. When we do this, not only do we elevate our own consciousness but then we gift others with that too.